This week is going to be a tough one and I think it is really going to define me in this game and also with my weight. There are so many parties and each one is going to have lots of goodies. Yesterday was The Boy's 8th birthday and I didn't get to partake of any of the treats. Today I had to avoid all of the leftover treats. Saturday is baptism day and there will be MORE treats. And then Sunday is Mother's Day. That is the day I am trying to save up for. But all of this talking myself out of things has really made me think about the contest. Really made me think about IF I can lose weight.
It actually isn't as hard as I thought it would be to give up the snacking. The sugar snacking. Every once in a while I have to remind myself that I don't need the Rice Krispy treat in the pantry or the chocolate chip cookie in the freezer. But the treats that go along with special occasions are HARD to resist. Because my mind tells myself that I am not celebrating unless I am partaking of them. A birthday doesn't feel like a birthday if you don't eat cake.
I know those feelings are wrong. I know they need to be changed. I know that I need to teach myself to enjoy things WITHOUT food. But that is 30 years I am having to reprogram. And that is hard.
Today I have been tired and grouchy and wanting the leftover donuts from Drew's birthday breakfast. And the leftover lemon cake from Drew's birthday dinner at Joe's. And the chocolate chip cookies that are in the freezer from when Re brought us dinner last week. I want sugar. And I almost talked myself into giving up this whole thing and eating ALL of it. The cookies and the cake and the donuts. And maybe even a rice krispie treat.
But I didn't. And that is a win for me. But I know I am really going to have to do some searching if I am going to be able to do it for 9 more weeks.
But I have to say that 9 doesn't sound as bad as 12.
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